Very good day/night, everyone!
This one is a bit of a touchy topic for me. I do ask that you read at least some of this story before replying. <3
Some time ago, about a month or two, give or take, (my memory is poor) I had a… let’s just say ‘unsavory’ date with a Hinge match. Something very bad happened to me during that date that altered my mind and my self-image. I went to my large friend group (online) for advice and comfort. I was scared and very confused.
These ‘friends’ began to dump all these very scary suggestions at me. Things I was not ready to do in that moment. Suggestions that were certainly appropriate, but I was simply too paranoid to execute in that particular moment. So I explained that I would rather just ghost him for a bit and then remove him. Because I couldn’t even look at his profile without feeling tsunamis of emotional turmoil. IYKYK. They did NOT take this well. They switched their views just like that. They declared that I was ‘defending him’ and that I was a “dumb b*tch” (This one stung the most, as this person also then blocked me before I could even reason with them.) They began to blame me for this problem. Claiming I was ‘rushing love’ and this was ‘karma.’
This spiraled into all of them sending me paragraphs upon paragraphs in a group chat explaining how I am manipulative, lack common sense, a defender of (bad thing that happened to me), and a fake friend. (Apparently, I was ‘using’ them.) Mind you, we are all adults. This felt very, very childish, but it still hurt me. Because none of it was true. None of them seemed to understand my POV. My therapist told me they never will.
ANYWAYS. It’s been some time since I lost all these ‘friends’, yet their energies still haunt me in my sleep, in my day-to-day. I’ve cut contact with them all (and yes, with the guy too, dw. Bro is banned on that app too XD) but they still make me feel… well, like a ‘dumb b*tch’.
I can almost hear them gossiping about me. I have drawn the gossip card from my oracle deck a few days in a row, actually. It was alarming.
I want them to forget about me. Or at least, take my name from their tongues (and keyboards). I’m so sick of being beaten down by words. So I guess I am asking for a spell that can do that, or block their influence from my energy. Minimal supplies would be preferred, I am not allowed to have flames in my dorm, so no incense/candles/etc. I am new and not good at making my own spells, so I hope you all will have some good points!
Thank you,
Caspian ![]()