Im not..superly connected to my ancestors or spirits or anything. I cant even see the deities I follow, though I suspect that has something to do with the seal a monk gave me to cover my third eye or something so I guess Im pretty powerless.
A bit of a backstory, I used to be able to see spirits or well sense them? I always had dreams, foresight into the next day of what would happen and the exact same thing would play out physically as it had in the dreams.
I wrote it in my books, told my family and at one point wrote it on the door of my room. I think my parents must’ve gotten spooked as I vaguely remember my dad carrying me when a monk had stamped my back with red ink. But I was too sleepy. I believe I was begging them not to? Cant recall too clearly anymore.
So now, I suffer in not being able to see my deities and I think the seals weakened as Im able to ‘feel’ spirits in shivers whenever its nearby. But never deities, Im not sure if the issue lies with me or if the seal is that effective? Though I can name two times I saw a spirit. Once was at my parents home when it bumped into a clothing rack and appeared in the window reflection and the other time was when I was sleeping at my grandmothers and it stood at the feet of my bed when I woke up in the middle of the night.
Ah! I also had a dream about my great grandfather (he passed a long time ago) once before he moved on to his next life (i think) he told me to take care of the family and protect them. Why he handed me this task, I do not know. All I know is, the family is being held together by hopes and dreams because of a blunder my aunt made. But yeah! Uh I guess I just kinda wanted to know what anyone else thought of this.
As ever since I ventured down this path, I found out Loki has been with me the whole time and I read tarots off by vibe when I read for others which is basically my intuition..? Confusing I know, but hearing people talk about familiars and ancestors, had me wondering if I had one? Past me always had this whole bit about having an artic fox pet in imaginary scenarios and its been stuck with me ever since.