I want to know what you all think.
Since I was a little transgender girl I have always had an insatiable desire to be ripped apart and eaten by sharks,bears or wolves. So is it wrong that I have that desire? Shouldn’t we be allowed to do what we want with our own bodies?
Terrific Tuesday again Brianna,
You are kind of asking a strange question. I wouldn’t be surprised if you do not receive many answers. That being said, I will tell you that Shadow Work is where you should focus yourself. And that is exactly what Shadow Work is, focusing on yourself. It is NOT easy. Myself, I only do shadow work maybe 3 or 4 times a month.
So, before you ask if it is good or bad, or what it means, you need to study your own psyche (shadow work) and interpret these symbols for yourself.
I guess this is not what you were hoping for. Best I can do, sweetheart……Lady Gene 
Thank you Lady Gene.
I have always felt very in line with nature.
I know that people eat animals and are we not also animals so I kind of think that I am just another piece of meat in the food cycle for lack of better words. I just wondered if that makes me a bad person. I mean I don’t expect everyone else to see themselves like that. I just feel that way. Now as far as my other post I was raised in a toxic family where I was basically a Cinderella except I never met a prince to rescue me. I was never validated or respected unless I did things for them. So I became codependent. So that’s why I asked about a spell or a ritual because it’s so hard to not feel those same things now even though I am away from them.
I just want to be completely open and stop hiding my true feminity
It wouldnt be too hard to write a spell/ritual.
Write down in point form each thing you want.
If, unlike myself, you have the gift of prose, connect each of your points with words to make it flow like a poem or an announcement.
Added options:
Light some candles (colours can be just as important) read out your spell and then burn the paper you wrote it on.
or
Make a spell jar and place the note in the middle of the jar between the other items you place in it.
Terrific Tuesday Brianna,
I would not worry about eating/not eating animals. Really, look at it, animals eat other animals, and what are we….spirits in animal bodies. Lady Gene
Revisiting this, it sounds like you need to accept yourself first. Be at peace with yourself, do not think of yourself as a ‘piece of meat’.
I also have had this kind of problem, all my life. It’s called Death Drive
I would have to add that Shadow Work is the best way to understand and see this part of you.
You have free will - you have the freedom to think or do what you wish, but no-one is free from the irreversible effects of our actions, because that is the law of dhamma/dharma - the law of reality.
This is a complicated question that I think would be best addressed through introspective work - I will echo what the others say and suggest shadow work too, along with finding a professional or a very close friend that might be able to help you with processing the difficult emotions that come up after doing a shadow-working session.
Thoughts like that indicate that you are not at harmony with yourself. You are not seeing value in your own body. Your conscious mind is attaching it to your sex, but your subconscious will have deeper reasons for this thought pattern. This can have long term effects on your physical and spiritual health.
What do you see when you look at the bodies of others? Why is it different from how you view yours? Write your answer on a piece of paper. If your answer doesn’t feel fully explained, then reason must be deeper. Ask “why” again, and keep writing your answers, until you reach a point where you can’t go any further. The intent is to find the “root” of the pattern. Take your time with this exercise - if any emotions come up, allow yourself to feel them until you get your answer.
When you find the “root” you should have a good starting point on where to begin with your shadow work and pursuing other modes of therapy. Chakra therapy I believe will also be good, starting from the Root Chakra.
May you find peace. 
Merry Meet Brianna
Starting with “Since I was a little transgender girl…” and ending with “Shouldn’t we be allowed…” and considering some other things you have said, leads me to think perhaps the whole thing of being eaten by whatever is a metaphorical description of your view of your life. You were born in a body you weren’t/aren’t comfortable with, in a society which for the most part is condemning and ostracizing or at least distant and uncaring. Ripped apart and eaten could easily describe most of your existence. It is never wrong to be you. Validate your feelings and if you want to change them, change your thought process. What’s most important is your own self-image. Brightest Blessings!
Weird Wednesday Marcus and Brianna,
Wow, I really like that psychoanalysis, Marcus. I did not know where to go with that imagery. You sound so on point!!! Loving yourself should help take those nightmares away.
Lady Gene
Thank you Marcus,
Unless you are pushing other people into shark infested waters or a bear den, I don’t see why this would make you a bad person.
All kidding aside, here is the first thought that came to me when I read your post. Being torn to pieces exposes every part of your physical body, down to the ligaments and bones and what have you. This desire may represent your deep seated need to be seen for who you are, for ALL you are. In other words, without having to hide any aspect of yourself. Which is what we all deserve 
Just my two cents, take it for what it’s worth 
Oh that is beautiful and makes sense. There are so many ways to look at it now