You don’t sound weird at all, you sound like most of us did at one time. Oh, maybe we are all weird
Welcome to the path, there is no pressure to choose which you wish to follow. Wander down each to see which calls to you. Eventually, with research, experimentation and conversation, one will feel like home. Also know the path you choose now may not be the exact same one you walk forever.
Thank you for your kind words. It‘s hard because i can‘t find a path that sounds like i wanna dive deeper into, because it sucks a lot energy out of me like herbalism.. i like it but It’s exhausting me.
I have daily experiences with entities & dreams.
If you have an idea what direction you might think that could help me, i‘m all here for it.