For years I have felt strange, like there was something unexplainable to the point that i couldnt even put it into words. It was like for a moment i left the world and got stuck in this space in between, observing everything from outside. Very strange feeling. The more i grew the more it felt insistent. Until about four years ago, it was such a strange empowering feeling, almost scary. It started slowly, I observed people and its like i heard their thoughts before they spoke them, then it became even more intense, in the middleof conversations a strange feeling of fullness arose and for a split second i saw it, my eyes didnt see it but my brain registered it like it did, i “saw” what was about to happen, and it was really unsettling in the beginning. It only ever happened during interactions, but then again it changed. It isnt anything crazy, nothing other people see, it is mostly a series of really strong sensations that persuade me, i “see” things and it is like i just know them, my brain knows. I started feeling crazy when it started happening with objects or events or people but randomly without needing a direct contact with them. Choices that involve multiple options, and one specific seems to call me; i wake up a random hours at night and i know who is going to text me and what they will say; i get told stories i already know; and that is just examples, sometimes the sensations are so strong and they pervade me, while the rest the time i feel them but i have a hard time interpreting them in specific ways, (for example, i feel it is going to rain but i cannot say if it is gonna be tonight or tomorrow). I am starting to feel crazy with all this so im asking, can this be “magic” i do not like the word but i dont know how else to say. I have been involved with things before, from the stories ive been told, as a really young child i used to conversate with a mad, i used to describe him as old, sitting in the shade of a tree in my garden on his read motorbike, i gave details about this man that no one else seemed to see and while consulting with family it was clear that the man was a relative who passed a whole year before i was born. Similar things kept happening, presences all arund pkaces, i have positively “guessed” in whch room people have passed in multiple houses i have been in, like i felt the “presence”, im sorryfor the poor description but i felt like i was not alone, like the space became tight all of a sudden. I cant explain it, i just know things.
I dont know if it is relevant but when i was around 14, a lady i used to know gifted me a deck of tarots, she said something about me “having it” or “knowing it”, im not quite sure, at that point it didnt matter that much to me, but maybe she saw something i didnt see. Also, my mom is into this kinda stuff like stones and burning herbs and candles anf my grandpa seems to dream stuff, im not quite sure of what this is and i dont think they know either, anyone who can help me identify if this all can mean something or im just going nuts haha
Sounds like you are highly empathic. I am not sure if this is the correct term. You seem to feel and know things right before or as they are happening. That is such a wonderful gift. I am looking at it from the outside; as you describe it, I can see how unsettling this is.
