I’m a lycanthrope, you see, and I feel the effects of any special type of moon. I’d REALLY like to stop having those effects of basically being a werewolf and just live my life, without spikes of high energy, no pain and rapid healing. plz help…
It really would be nice to have any ideas to try out, I’ve even tried small blood rituals (my own blood though, I WILL NOT use any other kind for that.) If anyone has suggestions, please tell me them.
A problem you are likely to experience in seeking relief relates to physics and psychology. You may want to try and find a therapist who can relate to your condition and offer helpful suggestions. The only therapist who was ever able to really help me was herself schizophrenic (and a beautiful loveable person). I have days when I’m just no fun to be around, but I am blessed that it doesn’t relate to the moon, as I love the moon in all her phases. I relate to my alters as individuals with troubled souls rather than being a problem whenever I can. I wish you well my friend. Brightest Blessings!
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I’ve always been such a shy being that I’ve been forced onto a medication to make me more talkative. Same with hearing voices, so I can se how a bit of my curse is related to psychology. But at this point, my only question is that, I’ve been going to therapy for around seven years and nothing has changed regarding this, exept one thing. I’m dying pretty quickly now, at the age of 19. White, silvery hair, arthritis, and problems that are unusual, as in my flesh rotting and skin peeling. I worry that I won’t be able to control any aggression in the next few full moons.
I have been with so many therapists I would have to think a while to even remember them all. I have been treated by shrinks with PhDs, Masters degrees, and various and sundry other qualifications (I am diagnosed with DID, bi-polar disorder, PTSD, Anxiety, Depression, Explosive anger disorder (different name now), on and on. Essentially all of my alters have their own personalities and mental health issues. I tell you this so you may understand that I do have at least some degree of firsthand experience with issues most people will never understand. I don’t know if you have had many different therapists, but it is very important that you trust and believe in your therapists. If you don’t, find another therapist. My thought was and is not so much that you “need” therapy as it is that you need a therapist that understands your condition. The only person that can heal you is you, but it sure makes it easier to have the assistance and encouragement of someone who cares. You may want to consider talking with a homeopathic practitioner in your area; someone who is well experienced with natural cures, especially herbs and essential oils. There are herbs and oils that I am sure you would find helpful both physically and mentally. There again due diligence is required to avoid all the would-be healers. More or less dreading a full moon is most certain to contribute to negative results. If there is some way you could be calmer, it may help. Perhaps guided meditation or something along those lines would help. Sometimes I close the blackout curtains, put a headset on, and crank up anything from Enya to Pantera, depending on the type of chaos there is in my head. I eventually more or less “made peace” with my condition and look for ways to be positive about it (though I do admit it gets pretty twisted sometimes). Part of why it took me so long to deal with my reality is my resistance to authority and my own preconceived notions of how useless therapy was going to be. My best therapist by far was schizophrenic. You will be in my thoughts tonight. You are not alone. Brightest Blessings!
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Brightest Blessings for you too! So far, you’ve already helped more than I ever thought about this, so thank you. Normally I’m a extremely calm person (some people have even called me a robot for this exact reason), but, as soon as there’s a full moon, I cannot control it anymore… it just feels wrong, but my soul thinks it’s natural. I have multiple personalities, each one with a different reaction to the full moon, and one of them can easily kill me. That personality is genocidal and entirely aganst government and society. I’d have to see my own blood just to not kill someone. The one and only time that happened without a full moon is when someone tried to kill me a few months ago with thick steel wire wrapped and tied around my neck. I broke the wires with my hands and almost tried to stab their windpipe with one of the sharp pieces of shrapnel remaining. But I stabbed myself instead.
Ah yes, but are you really calm or merely appearing calm? I often sit quietly in a chair. I appear to be quite calm - but my brain is going at light speed, there is a cacophony of angels and demons battling for my soul. There is an old saying that the dog that wins is the one you feed. We both know that is BS. We no more control them than the man in the moon. I can’t stress enough that you take all prescribed medication when you are supposed to. Our wires were crossed at or before birth. We didn’t cause it and we can’t cure it. The medication is like insulation between two wires. When we don’t take it the wires touch and we short out. Look for positive ways to channel your energy, such as rituals and spell work. If possible, walk in the woods as often as possible; notice the trees, plants, insects - marvel at the intricacies, be the wolf, become his friend, and tame the hurt, anger, frustration and fear. I recall you remarking that you are cursed. Have you considered exorcism? From a completely different angle, you may consider studying some discipline of physics. I enjoy astrophysics and geophysics, and am particularly fond of quantum physics. What I like about physics is the facts supported by empirical evidence, mostly with no spiritual aspect at all. That gives my mind more of an understanding of what is, as opposed to what we believe is or what we want to be, or what our brain is trying to convince us is. Going back to my wiring analogy, I think sometimes we simply have to accept the way we are wired and strive to find the best insulation we can to keep from shorting out.
Hello Questionable Furry,
I am surprised to see an issue that has had my attention and thought for years. Is your experience a true disorder or are you a Neosapien that has experiences that we Homosapiens just can not fathom so we drug into dullness? If you cause no harm to yourself and or other beings I think you should relish in the extrasensory perception, power and strength of a Lycanthrope. To berate yourself will only exasperate your discomfort. I have seen outrageously beautiful Spirits become dull cogs by succumbing to pressure to medicate by those who know no better. Maybe do not try to suppress but fully open to your experiences where deep meaning, understanding, knowledge and power may reside. These thoughts of mine are controversial and many criticize me. If the premise of do no harm to others or yourself is paramount who knows what glories may be ahead if you open up instead of trying to close down. The energy of a wolf is spectacular!
Of course you may just wish to discount everything I wrote. After all I am just a crazy old Berserker that lives in the woods.
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Well, yes, at those times I have the energy of a wolf, I normally also have Sleep Apnea. And if by “Neosapien” you mean kind of… not exactly human, you’d be very correct. I’m not synthetic or a piece of machinery either. Here’s a short list of everything that I have that “normal” people don’t: a tail, just about only canine teeth (that are sharp enough to cut through bone), extremely high light sensitivity, extremely high noise sensitivity, extremely high vibration sensitivity, and being able to know others emotions by scent.
The ony times I think that the idea of: do no harm to myself or others is valid is when they’ve done nothing to harm or bully me, family or friends. One wrong action at the wrong time won’t have good consequences for them…
Hello Furry,
My apologies. I had thought your earlier writing to be metaphorical. I did not realize that you literally transform physically during the three nights of the Full Moon every Lunar cycle. Are your tail and canines a permanent part of your being or do they appear at the Full Moon? My writing was to only encourage exploration. That is if your desire was to do so. It is apparent however that your situation is anathema to you. The Mesoamericans called skin changers Nagual and they were most honoured in their clan. It appears the difference is that they desired and sought the change but you hate it. So forgive my earlier writing trying to encourage you to explore the possibilities. It seems that you abhor you situation. You must work to alleviate your anguish. If therapy and pharmaceuticals give you the relief you desire then that is your path.
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The problem that is confusing me the most is that those two options just speed up my death, or the death of others, I’m losing control of this rapidly, I was forced to stab myself with a kitchen knife just to not kill someone, at least it wasn’t painful… the only painful part was using crutches.